Tuesday 10 August 2010

"The internets been so dull without you"

Believe me when I say a life without internet is a life not worth living. I felt completely cut off, from everything. I was washed over by a sense of clarity and relief when I turned my PC on this morning, i had forgotten how much I feel comfortable sat in front of my computer, in my own little world a place where no one is going to hurt me, where I can be whoever or whatever I want.

Depressing, it first might seem, I believe it isn't, it's helped me through some bad times in my life, where I can just come home to the internet, where all my friends are waiting for me to hear about my day, or wanting to play some video games, or talk about this new band they just heard.

A whole different world where people want to talk to each other, to get to know each other and socialize. Its incredibly difficult, for me at least, to fathom how something like the internet has created a whole different sub culture. A whole different society.

My society. The collective I can associate myself with, a world where my real life isn't involved unless I want it to be involved (and in some occasions, if not most, this has proved to lead to only good things).

When like myself you start to associate yourself with a collective, you grow fond of it, so much so you become to rely on it. Then you're cut off.
You start to wonder if your lack of presence is being noted, if your friends are wondering where you are, or your guild is starting to worry. It drives you wild.

Not having your favorite band just a click away or any question you might want to know the answer to at the tips of your finger tips. I felt almost poverty stricken, it made me wonder how people got by before the internet. Despite living in a time without the 'proper' internet, I cannot begin to imagine how it feels.


But even though you've been cut off, you go out of your way to go to a member of your familys, or your friends, house, just because you know they've got wifi. You spend days merely peeking through the window at the rolling hills. Then at the end of it all you get your connection back, and that door is swung wide open.


That feeling of home sickness you experienced has gone. You're home, and everyone has missed you.

1 comment:

  1. And I have missed you too little boy... i feel like a mother hen wit all u lil chicks running around the world living ur lives that i wish i cud b a part of...

    im so proud of ur retail expedition.. it sounds like a great learning experience...

    and if u ever feel like talking... drop me a line on ipshis@gmail.com... im an insomniac without any friends around me since iv shifted lock, stock and the proverbial barrel :)

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