Dandruff

My uncle was telling me how he asked my younger cousin what the problems in his life were. His reply? "Dandruff". Needless to say me and my uncle had a bit of a gas at his sons expense.

For some reason his answer has stuck in my mind, its made me question the problems in my life, how I find my cousins 'problems' humorous, where as my uncle for example might find that my problems are humorous.

Grown men and women (Not doss about pseudo-adults like myself) have children, bills, work e.t.c, a whole different world of very real problems. Mine seem almost shadowed in comparison. But it's gotten to the point now where I have to grow up and accept adult responsibilities, for example in the next couple of days I will be taking over my phones contract, before my mum paid it for me but now its up to me. Its a pretty terrifying leap, knowing I have to save £35 for my monthly income to pay the phone bill.

I have college to think about, too. I have to really pull my finger out when the next term starts and knuckle down. Admittedly in the last school year I haven't given it my all, knowing I'd get onto the second year of the course regardless I just didn't have that motivation. But now if I don't pass my second year I won't go to uni and then that's it, end of the line for me, I won't get into my preferred industry as I had hoped.

Yet out of all of the things troubling me, my social life and my lack of girlfriend bothers me the most. After a messy break-up I was reluctant get move on and get to know other women, but as time passed I got over that and started to peruse the opposite sex, only to be mucked about and tossed aside. This bruised my confidence even more.
But then my friends stopped getting in touch with me, I've lost contact with almost them all. Perhaps they sensed my bruised confidence and didn't want me to bring the groups mood down? I'll never know. It doesn't matter just yet, as my best friend (Who've I've known since I was a wee boy) is still my friend. We're trying to get in as much time to see each other as possible before he goes to University in September. It's going to be pretty rubbish not having him around, but I'll live.

At the same time it'd mean I would have to go out and socialize and help myself a bit more rather than rely on the 'norm' that I've gotten used to. I can't spend everyday getting stoned like I have been. I'm sure people wouldn't want to get to know me anyway.